A New Season

“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you; I appointed you a prophet to the nations.”
JEREMIAH 1:5

I'm changing my name.

Rather, I will be returning to MY REAL NAME.

I used to dislike the thought of naming my page with my name. I thought, "How can people find me if they do not even know how to spell my name?!" 😂 So, I opted to use my nickname.

As I grew deeper with my relationship with the Lord, it came to me that I am proud by the name that God bestowed upon the heart of my mother to me. He inspired her to name me this way because He knew His plans for me (Jeremiah 29:11)

I'm a bit emotional writing this, because it took me a lot of time before I was able to embrace myself.

One of the things God said to me while I was questioning my worth in a certain season was, "Just as you are..." Removing all of who I think I was, what I have, my talents, everything that I can boast of... It all came down to zero. Just a nobody. Until that small, still voice is what I heard. It was clear, "Just come to Me as you are." I cried my heart out. Nothing in this world can break me to humility such as the fact that I had grieved His heart by not loving myself. He created us to be in communion with Him, and nothing saddens our Father more than knowing that we are ashamed of what we are currently - our looks, our talents and gifts, our very existence.

See what kind of love the Father has given us: We are called God's children—and that is what we are! For this reason the world does not recognize us, because it did not recognize him, either. 

1 John 3:1


I am thankful to Jesus. He keeps revealing a portion of His heart every time I need it.

Now, folks. Allow me to re-introduce myself.

I am Apaulle Danielle Mestiola. A follower of Jesus Christ, whose mission is to share a piece of my story everywhere I go to encourage other people and ultimately lead them to the heart of God.

You are always loved.

P.S. I just want to share the music I am listening to while writing this.

Miracles // Jeremy Riddle & Steffany Gretzinger // Bethel Music
You're Beautiful - Jeremy Riddle (Bethel Church)

A NEW BEGINNING (2019)

These past few days, I have actually been crying out to God, saying that I can no longer dream nor see the vision He has for me. I had asked, "Will it really come to pass? I do not see me in it anymore. I am afraid I had missed it. What will happen now?" As I worried endlessly, I realized that I lost the zealousness and hope that I once had. When all seemed lost, today, I got a text from a dear sister in Christ who invited me to meet His spiritual father from Nigeria.


I am so blessed for today! What I thought was an ordinary meetup turned out to be an appointment for the anointing I am asking for! Thank you, Pastor Obi for speaking life and igniting the fire in me! Almost all of the faith goals and prayers that I have for 2019 were answered through you! Praise God for your life! Thank you also to @whengrodriguez for being used by God for making this meeting possible, because of your obedience, I have made a new friend. Truly, God works a divine appointment and He cannot be stopped. This memory will be engraved in my heart.

Truly, God has never failed to show up in time! Thank you, Jesus for reminding me that your are still and always will be sovereign. The preparation is long, but once finished, I will emerge into the vessel of honor you want me to be. I fully receive the grace you have given me, and partake into the assignment given to me. For it is not my own honor that I seek, but to show Your glory so that men will see Jesus reflected in me.

All the Glory belongs to You, and You only.

Amen

May 06, 2019